I feel torn between emotion and logic
Unsure of how to go about my life
I know that basing my life on this
Cannot possibly be right
Yet these feelings still persist
I think everyday about the wasted time
And the forgotten opportunities that I had with you
I can't get them out of my mind and it tears me apart
I hate myself for being foolish and inconsistent
For making it seem as if I didn't like you
When in truth my heart yearned for your presence
While I dreamt and thought of you
I curse my pride and indecision
I felt I couldn't let them think they knew my feelings toward you
Yet I was wrong, and I fear it may be too late
If not for you, than at least for me
It's tearing me apart...
Knowing that obsession is not a healthy stage of affection
I just continue to rationalize it out
Convincing myself that you'll always be there
I struggle to think with my head and not my heart
Quite frankly, it's becoming a losing battle
The inward civil war continues to tear me apart
Divided I Stand, United I Fall
One figths for logic, the other for emotion
The casualties continue to mount
Only one goal in each battle
To win your affection.
Distance may forget, time may fade
Yet I remember...
Vividly the time I spent with you
And ignored and took you for granted
I feel it's too late...
On this, both sides agree
The one thing that can end these feelings,
Is the one I don't want.
I can only apolagize so much,
In my heart, in my mind, in my dreams...
Yet all this is in vain
If I don't tell you directly
For now, I can only struggle through the best I can
Fighting a war that can only be decided by one
Who is in the distance, and fading fast
Like my hopes for her.
